DROP THE PAST TO WIN THE PRESENT AND TO CONQUER THE FUTURE
The most difficult thing in life is to drop the past – because to drop the past means to drop the whole identity, to drop the whole personality. It is to drop yourself. We are nothing but our past, you are nothing but your conditionings. It is not like dropping clothes – it is as if one’s skin is being peeled off. Your past is all that you know you are. Dropping it is difficult, arduous – the most difficult thing in life. But those who can dare to drop it, only they truly live. Others simply pretend to live, others simply go on dragging themselves somehow. They don’t have any vitality; and they can’t have. They live at the minimum. And to live at the minimum is to miss the whole thing.
It is only when you live at the optimum of your potential that blossoming happens. It is only at the optimum expression of your being, of your truth, that God arrives – that you start feeling the presence of the divine. The more you disappear, the more you feel the presence of the divine. But the presence will be felt only later on. The first condition to be fulfilled is disappearing. It is a kind of death.
Hence, it is difficult many to attain to a higher state of life (enlightenment). And conditioning has gone very deep — because we have been conditioned from the very beginning; from the first moment we were born, conditioning started. By the time we became alert, a little aware, it had already reached to the deepest core of your being. Unless you penetrate yourself to this deepest core that was not conditioned at all, that was before conditioning started, unless one becomes that silent and that innocent, he or she will never know who they truly are.
One will know they are a Hindu, a Christian, a Buddhist, a Muslim, a theist, and atheist and so forth. They will know they are an African, an American, an Indian, a Chinese, a Japanese, and they will know many things — but those things are just conditionings imposed upon them. Yet they had come into the world utterly silent, pure, innocent. Their innocence was absolute. Meditation means to penetrate to that core, to that innermost core. The Zen teachers and masters call it KNOWING THE ORIGINAL FACE.
We were born to see the truth, we were capable. Each child is able to see and know God, to communicate with existence, to will – but the society hinders him. Slowly slowly, all the doors are closed. Slowly slowly, he achieves a kind of inability, a kind of impotence. And then even when he sees the doors of the prison are open, he cannot come out. He clings to the bars. It is like a parrot who has lived so long in the cage that he has forgotten that he has wings. Leave the door open… he will not come out of it. If you try to bring him out he will cling to the bars. This is the state of all societies in the world over, they only differ in sophistication and degree but the essence of the conditioning and the underlying confusion remains the same and constant.